losing our grip on purpose

By Lydia Rae Bush

Honestly, I forgot the time
I was seventeen and experiencing
adult-onset symptoms and so
reached out to a trusted adult,
saying, I think I got the craziness
that ended my grandmother and
passed down to my father, but
they said, nah, you’ve just got
demons, so I just believed them,
and we just let the patterns settle
in and deepen. God, what a waste
of time, exponents, and delusion.

Lydia Rae Bush is a Best of the Net nominated poet writing on embodiment and social-emotional development. Rae’s work can be found in publications such as Vocivia Magazine and Corporeal. Lydia’s chapbook Free Bleeding is forthcoming with dogleech books.