yellow veil

By: Paulette Hampton

Years ago, when I hobbled through this world unmedicated,

I was at constant odds with my thoughts, daring me to do and say things I could never take back.

I quieted them most of the time with sacrificial compulsions until “it felt right.”

Finally, when my weary brain couldn’t take anymore, a gauzy yellow veil

slipped between my eyes and the rest of the world,

staining life like the discoloration of an old photo,

a casualty of the acid I’m made of.

Yellow was the color of derealization,

of my anxiety in full bloom; its pollen clinging to my existence.

Every day became too much, and I hid from life’s scorching rays,

seeking dark quiet places where my mind could be cooled by Maastricht Blue dreams.

There I stayed until medication lifted my coarse saffron shroud,

revealing reality’s grounding spectrum.


Paulette Hampton holds a Masters in Reading Education. She is the author of the YA paranormal novel Of the Lilin and memoir When Life was Yellow: A Memoir of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. Her poems have appeared in Immortal Hymns Rewritten Realms, Secret Attic, and elsewhere. She lives with her husband and two cats in North Carolina. https://paulettehampton42.wixsite.com/website
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